Wednesday, May 29, 2013

69 Facts About Me...

This is a hashtag that was trending on Twitter and I decided to just blog it, so I don't go to Twitter jail. It was  a hard list to come up with, since I can't see anyone wanting to know any of this crap. I did it anyway. lol Enjoy!

#1) I’m left handed.  However, the only things I do with my left hand are write, eat and shoot. Everything else I do right handed. (Cut, throw, etc.)

#2) I was born on Shaw Air Force base in Sumter, SC

3#) I went to kindergarten in Wiesbaden, Germany where we lived for 6 yrs.

#4) Purple and orange are my favorite colors. I love how they blend 
seamlessly in the sky at the end of a day.

#5) I love super heroes. Captain America is my favorite Marvel hero and Batman is my favorite DC hero.

#6) I played little league baseball as a kid. I was the ONLY girl on the team.

#7) When I was 18, I auditioned to be a Playboy bunny. Made it to the local top 10 auditions before I backed out. The idea that my Dad and brothers might see the pictures made me change my mind about going any further.

#8) I like to climb trees but am afraid of heights. Yeah, I don’t get it either. Lol

#9) I can’t eat spicy food.  I have a very sensitive palette and if I take one bite of anything spicy, I can’t taste anything for the rest of the day.

#10) I love to fish, but haven’t been in many years. My dad and I used to go in my grandpa’s fishin’ boat at 4am when the water’s like glass. I think it’s where I became enamored with being awake late at night into the wee small hours of morning.

#11) I spent 12 years in Catholic school, but once Dad remarried we spent more time in the Lutheran Church. Gloria Dei. Johnston, IA where they got married. 

#12) The rosary I’m holding in my NOH8 picture is the one I went to go get from my Mom the night she was murdered.

#13) I have polycystic kidney disease.

#14) I’m half Filipino and the rest of me is a stubborn German with an Irish temper. It actually takes a LOT to make me angry, but when It happens…run. Lol

#15) I have a younger sister, two older half-sisters (one I have never met) and two younger step brothers.

#16) I love to see brightly colored flowers, but never like getting flowers from anyone because watching them die makes me too sad.

#17) I used to sit in my Dad’s workshop alone for hours, listen to music and build model airplanes as a kid.

#18) I managed the varsity football team in high school. I still love football. 

#19) Valentine’s Day is my least favorite holiday, because I don’t believe that you should wait for a special occasion to tell/show people how much you love them. 

#20) I had another older sister who died when she was 3 months old. Her name was Anna Lisa. I am her namesake. Her grave was swept away during a volcano eruption in the Philippines. My Father never speaks of her.

#21) I hit like a dude.

#22) My first job was as a waitress in a Chinese restaurant when I was 13 years old. My Grandparents on my Dad’s side helped me get the job. I looked like I could be related to the owners so no one ever questioned it. I’ve been working ever since.

#23) I haven’t had a soda since last October.

#24) I do crossword puzzles in pen.

#25) I’m a dog lover but have nothing against cats.

#26) I don’t watch much TV.

#27) I  once played the ditsy character, “Poopsie”, in a stage production of Pajama Game, but the director told me, “ You need to use your sex appeal to play this character because no one is going to believe you’re ‘ditsy’”.

#28) People always judge me before they get to know me.

#29) I’m a night owl AND a morning person. It’s between the hours of 3-5PM when I’m pretty much useless. Lol

#30) Making chocolate chip cookies from scratch is one of my specialties.

#31) I almost always feel cold.

#32) Being near water is my favorite thing in the entire world. Although, I could also watch a fire dance for hours too. 

#33) I am perpetually 6yrs old.

#34) I don’t like whipped cream. At ALL.

#35) I don’t like chocolate cake.

#36) I wear glasses at night when I drive, or when my eyes are really tired, 
but don’t need them otherwise.

#37) I have a collection of Christmas teddy bears kept in storage bins.

#38) My family forgot my 16th birthday because it surrounded my older sister's first wedding. Sadly, I never got Jake Ryan.

#39) When the kids were really little, I had an opportunity to sign and model for Elite Modeling agency’s Plus Size division (I fluctuate between a size 10&12, but that’s considered plus size for some stupid reason), but it required I move to NYC, and my (now ex) husband refused to move us and the kids because he didn’t believe I was pretty enough to get any work. So I had to let go of yet another dream. 

#40) I don’t drink and have never been drunk.

#41) I don’t smoke.

#42) I don’t have a favorite movie.

#43) I graduated from high school one of the youngest in my class.

#44) My nickname is Cheese, and has been for years, for more than one reason and none of them have to do with gas. ;)

#45) I used to have a giant poster of Freddy Krueger above my bed, in my pre-teen years, because I thought he was hilarious and not scary.

#46) I don’t like horror movies. Real life is scary enough for me.

#47) When I was going through my divorce I worked 3 jobs, including delivering newspapers in the middle of the night. I am a workhorse. 

#48) My brain is a virtual jukebox. It has music constantly playing on rotation.

#49) I love all music except for death metal and some classic rock rubs my ears the wrong way.

#50) I love hard and with everything I have. I don’t do anything halfway.

#51) Idle and I are not friends. I prefer to always be moving.

#52) I hate shopping.

#53) I’m 5’8” tall and my legs are 42” long from hip to toe.

#54) I have ridiculously high arches and wear a size 10 shoe.

#55) Nat King Cole is my favorite crooner.

#56) I truly believe that my bestie is one of the smartest people I have ever 
known .

#57) I don’t like raisins unless they’re in Raisin Bran.

#58) I’m both a coffee AND a tea drinker.

#59) I sucked my thumb until I was 7.

#60) I’m a hugger. Like, full 20 second, hug love back into you kinda hugger. Ask anyone who’s hugged me. They’ll tell you.

#61) I learn and retain things wicked fast.

#62) I don’t like a lot of sauce on my food.

#63) The smell of cologne/perfume gives me a headache and am not attracted 
to guys who wear it. I don’t wear any perfume, only scented lotion.

#64) I suffer from Seasonal depression.

#65) I like square shaped jewelry as opposed to circle and I don’t like gold.

#66) It Is virtually impossible to surprise me.

#67) I have never had a dance partner who truly knows how to lead.

#68) I dance in the rain every chance I get and have been doing so since I was in first grade.

#69) When I was 18, I won a karaoke contest, for singing “Independence Day” by Martina McBride. The prize was a studio recording session in Nashville. I never cashed in the prize. 




Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Back to Life...


Hi kids. :)

This may come as a shock to some people, but despite popular belief, my life is more than NKOTB, and I have a LOT on my plate right now. GASP!

Don't get me wrong, they are an important part of my life but they are not my LIFE. My break from twitter is so I can take some time to handle the challenges in front of me, take some time for myself, which I NEVER do, and reevaluate some things and a needed change in direction. I am burning the candle at both ends and it's just about gone. I am physically and emotionally exhausted. Burning out, not from ambitious or frivolous pursuits, but rather, from doing what is required of me to survive. Working to provide for my children is my first priority, but In doing so, I have lost sight of the things that make my heart smile. If I don't take the time to nurture the gifts that I have been given than I am wasting all the years of training I have invested.

I am taking four days off this weekend, to bring my heart's song front and center. No one can do that for me, nor do I expect anyone to. I have to do it, and I need to stop getting in my own way. Self doubt is paralyzing to me and on top of EVERYthing else I have on my shoulders, that is the heaviest thing that I allowed to creep in and I need to get back to a place of belief in myself. Part of that, is reinvesting in the things I love.

As my friend Cynthia Occelli says... " Withholding your dreams, talents and gifts to the world because of fear, is a form of arrogance. You didn't create your gifts, they were bestowed upon you. Doubting their worthiness is an insult to Creation. You are the deliverer. Your mandate is to nurture, grow and express the best in you." - http://ow.ly/kXcHd

I will handle this week's challenges and then Saturday through Monday I will park the "teacup" and get out to stretch my legs and my lungs. I will be sending some of you an email regarding the next leg of my journey I am going to embark on.

As I always say, I will be here should you want/or need me and gone if you don't.

I want to say thank you to those who love me. I cherish each of you. EVERY day.  I never expect and I never assume, because I know all too well how short life is. I will tell you often and without hesitation, and show you when I can, that you are loved in return.

No worries kids...I'll be Back to Life soon enough.

LOVE and LIGHT,
~AM